life =(

it's been so long i never update my blog.
sorry.. ( not really understand why i'm apologizing )
at the same time, i lost contact with him, too.
well, i promise myself not to think about him.
i removed him from my facebook friend list
though his presence has no any apparent effect
as he never post anything nor update his status.
he's gonna disappear from my life.
awww, not...
he had disappeared.
but not from my memory.
phew, i think i shouldn't talk much about him anymore.
ta and tata



talk about my life then.
life after spm and vacation
it's really dull!!!
since i'm not going to private college,
i'm gonna wait for my spm result.

when you yearn for something too much, you will never get it.
this is what life teaches me.
i'd been LUCKILY ( indeed honest, okay? ) selected to join NS.
so i planned to join it after one or two weeks after my spm for about 3 months
and then get my spm result and apply for teaching course.
it's just a PLAN,
a plan which was unfortunately dashed after i knew that i wasn't allocated for the first batch.
so my plan was just a plan, not going to come true.

so, what to do in this six months free time??
i don't want to spend my time by sleeping, eating, watching tv and playing computer ONLY.
any suggestion?
dad asks me to work in singapore.
i'm indeed delighted with this suggestion
but what can i work at there??
SINGAPORE,
it ain't strange for me as i had spent my holiday at there for about a month last time.
for me, it's safe and modern.
love the public transports there too
CONVENIENT!
going there on thursday
will try to seek for a good job.
hope to be blessed~

the end

i thought i could enjoy the last time having you on my right hand side
but i couldn't
the only thing i can say now is
IT IS FATED

- the end -


IF
we met by chance after many years,
i would say "hey, you owe me a big hug!"
          just kidding lar ~



再见面，已经是朋友了

我们就这麼单纯，瞎聊著彼此说以後

时间过了，学会珍惜了

原来最初的快乐并不是我们要的

终於能够坦白说著

我当时的脆弱

是唯一的一次，不留著遗憾的

简单结束了陌生

我们微笑了

也都不躲了，这单纯的坦诚

就这样，我们为彼此推翻著，不扰了

我们都笑了，时间停了

我们珍惜这一刻

放下累积的负荷，卸下沉默

学会了，不保留

再见後真的是朋友了

我们都不再单纯，也会笑著看以後

时间过了，也更珍惜了

原来当时的快乐，仍在你我记忆中

终於能够坦白说著，我现在不寂寞

是全新的一次，再也没了遗憾

简单地回应著伤痛

我们微笑了，也都不躲了

这单纯的坦诚

你好吗？多麼默契的开场白，我笑了

我们不走了，不再尴尬了

不回头凑理由

希望我们从此都真的快乐，说好了，不说走

—— 蔡仪林  《 开场白 》

Reminiscence

I saw my shadow
on the same glorious stage
where i had stood proudly and indulged myself in the loud claps and cheers.
There were 110+
but there had been 140+.
This was the only difference.
The others were all the same --
the same lovely uniforms, red ribbons, touching songs and naive smiles.
I walked in and walked out from there
bringing a chest-ful of knowledge which i felt was not enough to quench my thirst.
So i proceeded to another station to continue my journey.
My endless journey...

Reading my blog
specially written for you
and
your comment sincerely left,
i feel no regret at all
because
i have been loving
and
had been loved..

Thank you.

雨刷

今天看见他们不知为了什么而搞得不开心
才第一次觉得分开对我们是件好事
至少我不用像她那样哭成泪人
你也不用像他那样无奈地被责骂
我明白这是你那时那么坚持的原因
只不过当时的我真的不能接受
对不起
到现在 我依然不能接受
今天会觉得分开是好的纯粹是因为觉得累了
也觉得坚持已经失去意义了
再给我些时间
我会消失的
从你的世界彻底消失
当然 我会想要留下一些快乐的回忆给你
希望你不会介意
如果在往后日子里的某个夜晚
我在你的脑子里打扰
请允许我怎么做












看着雨刷把落在车镜上的雨水扫开
我希望它也能把那所谓的爱一并扫开

"下雨天了 怎么办 我好想你..."

我 你

说真的
感觉上我们 SPM 后应该不会有任何的交集了
彼此会消失在对方的生活里
所以我想不出任何理由可以说服你接受我
我有些犹豫
有些无助
loving you is beyond my control
不是我说不去想你
你就会在我心里消失
不过也许我只是 hormone unbalanced
homeostasis cannot be carried out
才会这样

我是这样安慰自己

全新的

这次真的下定决心要用blogspot了

对不起我曾经的诺言

我说过我讨厌blogspot，不会用blogspot!!

所以说呀

世上真的没有绝对的事情

如果有一天你醒来看见太阳在西边

请别惊讶！

因为那是傍晚！ LOLZ

well

阔别了blogging的日子好久好久了

选新的 ..:梦 · 乐园:.. 我来了！