Relationship

i am always a failure in term of relationships.
maybe in other things as well but i have to admit this is my greatest weakness.

for a friend, i can do everything. i love to nag a lot when my friends ask me to help them, but at the end i will still help, no matter in what circumstances. i nag, not because i don't want to help but there's this "naggy dna" in my blood. ugh. i just love to nag! only one person truly understands this and i'm grateful that there's at least one. she used to laugh at me, laugh at my stupidity when i focus so much in helping my friends that i sacrifice myself. this is me. what to do?

a little bit off the track.

there's this girl who thinks i can't help her. at first she told me she doesn't need my help but then she said i can't help. I AM CONFUSED. i've never in my life met someone who can change her mind so fast that make me totally lost. anyway, the thing is she told me that she had decided not to open her heart to me and she said i should have known this long time ago!

okay. what can i say? what can i do?

my principle is that i should try my best to do things i can do and i should not force myself to do something i cannot do. i believe He will give me wisdom and strength to do the right things.

back to the story.

i wasn't and i am not angry with her. i just don't think there's anything i can do when someone whom i think is my friend, refuses to open her heart to me. but i will be here. if one day you think i can help and you want to open your heart to me, i hope you remember i'm still here.

take care, jenny.

I know life is not easy
I know exam is not easy
I know making money is not easy
I know helping people is not easy
I know getting a bunch of good friends is not easy
I know maintaining a relationship is not easy
But I will try
Try until I meet failure
And then I will try again
Again and again

Never give up.
Because I'm strong.
And I know whenever I fail and look back,
He will be there
To give me courage.

Every rainbow comes after the rain.
Sometimes, it may be just drizzle
But sometimes, it may be heavy downpour
So heavy that it comes with thunder and storm.
But we still have to go on. =)

15.04

Three years ago, a boy went to his school, bringing along a birthday cake for a girl.
Though the girl had initially requested to have ice-cream instead of cake,
She still smiled when she saw the boy.
She hadn't known that he cared.

Everything was simple.
They celebrated in the school canteen.
The cake didn't look nice.
No birthday song, no candle.
For the girl, all those were not important.
Only the boy is important in her heart.

Today, the girl receives a message from the boy.
He wishes her happy birthday.
They never live happily ever after.

Passion

When you do something with passion,
you will be able to find the true happiness.

....................................

I had a great day
In which I realized my passion in teaching is not just like a tiny drop of water
But it's like a bucket of water.
And now I wish one day it becomes like an ocean.

I have to admit I was really silly
That I actually rejected teaching this fun and noble profession last time.
And I have to admit I am greedy and stupid, too
That I give up my dream and choose to study overseas.
What else is more important than chasing your own dream?
And it's also my parents' dream!

Luckily I have waken up.
I know what I want clearly
But I'm sorry, at this moment, I can't go straight to reach my dream.
I'm making a detour in my journey.
Yet, I believe this detour will make me more firm about my dream
And more well-prepared for reaching my dream.

Everything is in His plan,
A plan that never fails.

遗忘

我不想遗忘
也不想被遗忘

keep on reminding myself:
i'm still strong. 

People say life is about making choices
But there's actually something you can't choose.
That's family.

You

There's a part in my heart which is always belonged to you
Though you might never claim your ownership.

I forget when was the last time I sent you a message
Because it's not important at all
When something is in your deep heart core,
You need not to see it nor hear about it.
You need not to touch it as well.
It's all because you can feel it.
This is how you are to me.
You will never know how determined I am in waiting for you.
Sometimes even I myself can't believe my own determination.

My roommate asked me a question and it really struck my heart.
Do you still love him?
I didn't answer her
But i have the answer in my heart.

In life, there many unpredictable things.
At this moment, you may feel joyful of what you are enjoying
But at the next moment, something bad may just happen.
We can't complain.
Sighing doesn't help too.
Everything has somehow been arranged
For us to learn
And grow.
Complain no more.
Sigh no more.
Try your best to see things positively
Even the whole world collapses
We still have Him.
Love your life
Love His plan.

我开始觉得你也好像鲸鱼了，
而我必须很努力很努力地成为大海。
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我很努力地在生活，
在求进步，
也很努力地祈祷你活得很好、很开心。
但是努力不能保证有结果。
尽管我如何努力，
我的生活还是一团糟，
而你的，我无从得知。

我不知道坚持的最终结果会是什么，
但与其中途放弃，
不如坚持下去。
因为你和我都不知道未来是怎样，
所以我更应该 hold on my dream!

加油！ C=