Life junction

Hi my dearest blog,

How are you? I apologise for neglecting you all this while. As time goes by, I slowly lose my motivation to blog anymore. Nowadays, people (including me) are using social media like Facebook, Instagram, Dayre, etc to document their thoughts; it's quicker and easier to garner attention. So I think you see where I am coming from. Yes, I'm here again to pen down my thoughts because I would not like them to go public. Okay lah, not that this blog is private, but the number of visitor it gets is extremely insignificant I think. =P

My graduation is coming soon, in this coming July. Technically, I will cease to live a student life on 24th May where I will take my last exam paper. Remember what I wrote in my last post? I am stuck in the same situation: not having the motivation to study. Or should I say not even having the drive to pick up motivation? Yet, I don't have a choice but to do well in my exam this time. It's my final exam and I can't screw it up. Why? I need good grades so that I can get a good job I want. What is a good job? Good question, I don't know. =/

It appears that there are many options lying ahead of me now but at the same time, all the options come with different conditions. With more considerations I have to take into account now, on top of my own passion and interest, such as parents, boyfriend, job stability, geography, my scholarship bond, lifestyle, learning opportunity, etc, I am lost. My boyfriend and I try to lay down plan together but I am still constantly feeling uncertain. The good thing is that he has been really kind and considerate to me, putting me as his first priority time and again. What more can I ask for right?

Standing at this life junction, I am lost, yet it allows me to see how people around me are loving me and supporting me. So all I ask for right now, is an open heart for myself, to feel and take in the blessing I am getting. <3